Seriously. I definitely need to find real work in my part of the world and during this recession. We're not having money troubles or hardships. In fact, we've never been more financially secure, but my husband's depression seems to have boarded the Crazy Train and I don't think it wants to get off. This has fueled my desire, which is more like a necessity, to become financially independent. The kids are now 16 and almost 15, so I'm not running out on the little ones. I've loved having all these years to be a full-time volunteer at school five days a week and just be there for them 24 hours a day. To be able to give them meals from scratch and those home baked goodies. I feel there was no work in the world more important than being with them and guiding them through life. Heck, I'm still guiding them, and they still have hectic schedules, but again ... I need financial independence ... in case husband decides he needs to sail away to Pitcairn Island.

There are problems -- I am rather a hermit, I really don't love the general public, I have social phobias, my resume is pretty much sparse since 1993. Yeah, 1993. That's the year I gave birth to my daughter. Back then I was in dentistry, but that's not really for me anymore. Too many people and it's too "big business" as dentists are very money-oriented.

I am working on my social problems, but I still have major hang-ups with one-on-one anything. I take pills to go to the hairdresser or dentist and am not sure how I would handle an interview. I'm going to see a therapist for the first time ever next week (big gulp -- not just a drink) to hopefully help me even further.

I'm hoping my intelligent blogging friends in my circle will have some good thoughts and I would be grateful for any and all suggestions. Anyone here have any social phobias? Find the career of your dreams in your 30's? You all know I appreciate the comments and the guidance!